Hellooo! Happy New Year!! I hope you've all had a fabulous New Years and all recovered by now. Unfortunately this time of year is normally pretty hard for me. It’s normally the time of year I have more visits to the doctors/hospitals, mainly because of my mood and depression. A lot of people feel down this time of year too, after the excitement of christmas and new years and being pretty busy for 2 weeks its not that great going back to work or school and getting back to a normal routine. This doesn't happen for me, although i wish it could. I normally spend the next two months in bed a lot, losing day after day. This year doesn't seem very different. I’m writing this at 4:40am on the 9th January and I’ve already missed most of the first 8 days of January. The only difference is, i have this surgery looming over me and growing ever closer, its only 4 days to go and I am absolutely petrified!! I stupidly googled it. NEVER i repeat NEVER google it!!! EVERRRR