Natasha Jade

Unfortunately, the amazing actor Robin Williams recently passed away. The cause of death was confirmed as suicide. I read something after his death which I believe is true. Robin Williams didn’t take his own life, depression did. If he didn’t suffer from depression he would still be with us now. Depression isn’t a choice. It isn’t feeling sad or fed up for a few hours or days. I hate when people say ‘I feel so depressed’ because they’ve seen a character die on their favourite TV show/Film or because their parents won’t buy them the latest fashion trend or Xbox game. You can’t just snap out of depression which most people think will happen or be given a magic tablet and everything’s fine again. It interferes with how you live and changes your life. For me it changed my whole life. Since leaving school I believe that’s when everything started. I used to have so much confidence at school by the time I left. Unfortunately when the bullying began for me again at college when everyo

Becoming frustrated doesn’t help with my pain and obviously my mood a lot and when the people around you who are supposed to care about you don’t help either it gets a whole lot worse. These last few weeks have been so frustrating and no matter how many times I explain this illness to people or tell them I’m not just going to magically get better overnight they will never understand. People also don’t seem to understand that I’m trying to get better and that I have tried almost every therapy, medication, routine, food, drink, etc. What people STILL don’t seem to understand is that I might look okay to you and be having a laugh with friends but that doesn’t mean everything’s better. Being out with my friends or family I may feel slightly better (otherwise I simply wouldn’t be out) but it means I’m probably sacrificing a decent night’s sleep or a whole day or week after. I’m not going to sit there and constantly say ‘I’m in pain, I’m in pain…’ otherwise what is the point in me l